Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Six weeks six days

We had our first scan yesterday at the doctor, and she found the embryo straight away and she has said everything looks very good. We even listened to the heartbeat. Partner was very excited to see and hear it. I asked him and he says it feels more real to him now. Of course, it seems very real to me because I can feel all these small changes happening in my body. It was about the size of a little jelly bean and the sac itself was maybe small plum sized. No wonder I'm starting to stretch at the seams.

My mother and Partner's parents have been told, but we've asked them to keep it quiet from the rest of the family for another month/six weeks. I have my next scan in four weeks, and I will feel easier telling people when there is less of a chance of miscarriage. Not that I'm really at a particular risk of it, but these things do happen sometimes.

TV and computer screens both make me feel nauseous so I have been doing a lot of reading. Not so much blogging or gaming. I can eat rice krispies, orange juice, brown toast, ham and mustard sandwiches, and bean burritos. Anything else is a probable no. Still have not actually puked, but a few times have retched. My sense of smell is heightened and many things smell disgusting to me now.

We have a due date: March 18, 2010. I will be seven weeks along tomorrow.

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Sixth week

The nausea continues though the lightheadedness is not as bad. Mostly, I think, because I am not so exposed to heat. I am working in a cooler environment and not standing for such long periods.

I am, however, very hungry nearly all the time. I can eat a large meal and be starving an hour later. I'm trying to focus on good fresh foods like lean chicken, eggs, cottage cheese, salads, fruits, nuts, and wholemeal toast. The only problem with most of these food items, though, is that they don't leave me very full. But anything that is greasy/fatty or sweet makes me want to throw up. Partner had some parmesan on his dinner the other evening and I had to leave the room, just from the smell. Butter also makes me a little icky. And all this makes it difficult both to cook and be cooked for.

Still very tired and trying to sleep when I can. I'm thinking I may take a nap when I get home from work. Which is now.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Fifth week achieved

From the third week, I was definitely waking up at least twice at night to pee. I knew right away, from this and from the bloated feeling: I was pregnant. Pregnancy was confirmed in the fourth week.

From the fourth week I was beginning to feel a bit lightheaded, tired, and dizzy, especially after standing for an extended period, or in heat. So work started to be a bit bad. I was asking for sit-down breaks constantly, culminating in an early finish one night because of faintness. I have asked my boss to be switched out of the kitchen, at least until I feel a bit more stable.

From yesterday I have begun to have bouts of nausea, though no actual vomiting. The fatigue has increased, or maybe just amplified because of the queasiness.

I am in part thrilled to have symptoms, because they say that means everything is going right, but still a bit terrified that something will go wrong. Partner says this is irrational and I don't need to worry until something actually does go wrong. I will try. I've wanted this very badly, and only recently recovered from an ectopic pregnancy, so I think the conflicting emotions are likely to continue.

Fifth week has now been achieved and I am now in my sixth week.